Sorry about the short, not very informative, post yesterday. That one was more for me. I had just given my notice, waiting to take the train home, and it was all very surreal. It was a need-to-get-this-out post.
Those of you who know me, or who have been unfortunate enough to get cornered by me at a party, know that I've been struggling with my chosen career path for some time. I'm 26, I just co-bought my first home, I'm getting married in the fall, and I've been really grappling with the big questions of life lately.
Who am I?
Who do I want to be?
How does the way I'm living my life reflect what I believe, think, want?
How can I pursue my dreams while still being able to afford yarn?
It didn't take long to conclude that my chosen career path wasn't in line with any of my answers (even though it affords me a healthy yarn budget). And the funny thing is once you accept a conclusion like that, it's really hard to continue going in the same direction. It's really hard to go through the motions when you know your heart isn't in it.
I've spent a lot of time thinking about what I want to do, the things that I disliked about my current situation, and what is important for me in a job/career. I thought about it some more, and then I talked Eric's ear off, and then I talked his other ear off, and I can't even tell you how supportive he's been through all this. (wonderfully awesomely supportive)
And so I've decided to join my father's firm. It's an opportunity to work with a diverse client base and in a position that is well-suited to my temperament and skill set. Also, I'm really looking forward to working with my father, who I admire and respect for more reasons than I could recount here.
My father raised us using many of the principles he used in his management consulting years - not that it's all about the bottom line, or that it's all about results, etc., but of the importance of listening to people, of communicating, of problem solving through working together (1. Identify the problem. 2. Share the problem. 3. Solve the problem.) That it's not what happens to you, it's how you handle it. The importance of taking responsibility for your actions.
What I love about this is that inherent in these lessons is the assumption that there is no difference between the way you want to live and the way you would conduct business.
Also, I realized that I miss working with clients, and the diversity of work inherent in a client based work environment.
Yes, my father reads the blog and no I'm not just saying all this.
Also, I knew I was doing the right thing because my horoscope said so:
If you're doing work you love, Gemini, your prestige will rise in the next six months. If you're doing work you merely tolerate, you'll experience a sharp increase in inspirations about how to remedy the situation. In the event that you actually hate your current form of employment, I believe you'll face a crisis that will force you to either quit or negotiate significant changes. But whether your gig suits you pretty well or not so much, I encourage you to start whipping up some magic that will move you closer to your dream job.
See? It pretty much told me I had to quit my job. The stars never lie.
And if that wasn't convincing enough, the fortune cookie I broke open last week said inside:
THERE WILL BE BIG CHANGES FOR YOU, BUT YOU WILL BE HAPPY
Also, it said my lucky numbers are 7, 12, 13, 39 and that my chinese word of the day is:
And I like monkeys, so that's cool.
Also, there's been knitting. I was a good knitter, and after listening to Brenda Dayne's essay on gauge (which was so wonderful, I listened to it twice) I knit this up:
I still haven't measured it, but the way I figure it, the hardest part was picking up the needles and getting it started.
Isn't it though?